Wednesday, 22 February 2017

Venus Extravaganza : On being a Transsexual in NYC in the 1980s

Transsexual Life in NYC 1980s

In 1990 I was 21 and at the point in my life where I had begun the long road of self discovery of what it means to be trans. It was also the year that Jennie Livingston released her cult documentary movie 'Paris is Burning.' I remember it being aired on BBC2 as part of their Arena documentary series. The Arena team made an introduction to the film stating that Madonna's hit single Vogue had taken it's roots from the culture existing within the underground gay night clubs of New York City.

The film chronicled the 'Ball Circuit', and the African-America, transgender, Latino and gay communities involved in it.  An underworld where you could live out the fantasy of being what you were denied in real life due to poverty, race or your sexuality. Organised into gangs called 'Houses', taking their names and influence from the major fashion companies, and battling it out on the catwalk for prestige and the ultimate realness of their fantasy. For one night each member of a House could walk the walk and compete for trophies, being what ever you wanted for the night.  This in itself formed part of the love and acceptance the contestants dreamed of.

This film had quite an impact upon me and I often thought about the many transgender characters involved within the film and where they are now. Sadly most of those who appeared have now passed on. One trans girl who I really took a shine to and would love to have met in real life was Venus Xtravaganza, from the House of Xtravaganza.

Venus stated in the movie, "I want to be a spoiled, rich, white girl living in the suburbs. They get what they want".

Born 22nd May 1965, as Thomas Pellagatti to an Italian-American and Pureto Rican family, Thomas adopted the name venus in her teens. Venus said that as she did not want to be an embarrassment to her family she decided to find another life and joined the House of Xtravaganza in 1983, when she also adopted the surname of her House.

Venus was trapped in poverty having moved away from home at such a young age and I would imagine the Ball Circuit provided her a way of escaping her trappings. She worked as an escort but was warned by her friends that she took too many risks and was far too trusting of people. As you follow her within the movie you're shocked to learn that before the filming had finished the young Venus met a very grizzly death. She was found strangled under a hotel bed in a New York hotel room. Her killer was never found. She was only 23 years old.

RIP Venus, I would have loved to have known you.

Having recently revisited the film I wonder how, if at all, things have changed for trans people since the 1980s. I would like to think things have changed for the better.  However today, there does seem to be a new dark uprising on the horizon pushing transphobia through the media.  We must do all we can to ensure that Transphobia is not used to push or be part of any political agenda.

The video below shows many of the sequences of Paris is Burning which feature Venus.  The full film is easily available and is even on Netflix. Enjoy.

From Wikipedia :
'The film depicts people with different gender identities or communities and their different forms of expression.[5] It also explores how its subjects dealt with the adversity of racismhomophobiaAIDS and poverty. For example, some, like Venus Xtravaganza became sex workers, some shoplift clothing, and some were thrown out of their homes by homophobic parents. One participant was saving money for sex reassignment surgery. According to Livingston, the documentary is a multi-leveled exploration of a subculture in African American and Latino cultures that proves to be a microcosm of society, which was an underappreciated and arguably underground world that many Americans were unfamiliar with.[6] Through candid one-on-one interviews the film offers insight into the lives and struggles of its subjects and the strength, pride, and humor they maintain to survive in a "rich, white world."  ' Read More 

Here is the trailer for the full Paris is Burning documentary.

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Tuesday, 24 January 2017

Forced Sexchange Film Trailer 'The Assignment' Finally Released

Hollywood does a forced feminisation movie? The Trailer is finally here for this new sexchange exploitation movie, which has been called transphobic. This film has been hanging around in limbo for a while now suffering quite a bit of controversy. The original title was Tom Boy, then it was (Re)Assignment and now it's been released as The Assignment.

The film centres on Frank/Tomboy Kitchen (Rodriguez), a contract killer who is seeking revenge after being involuntarily subjected to gender reassignment surgery by the sociopathic Dr. Rachel Kay (Weaver).

I have another previous blog posting about this film here which may interest you all.

Here is the trailer:

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Wednesday, 4 January 2017

Forced Medical Feminisation

Forced Medical Feminisation Anyone?

Here are a couple of fun forced fem films available to watch here:

 The Feminisation Clinic:  Karina Currie in The Feminization Clinic. Part of our You Will Dress range of titles- Your wife has imprisoned you in a institution and your care has been assigned to the sexy but cruel Doctor Currie who explains that you are now fully under her care and that you have no choice but to submit to full feminisation and castration, the speciality of her clinic. You WILL be a woman!

Nurse : Young Dr Lepton is forced to dress as a female nures by the other female nurses. Elderly Mr Baker refuses to have any male doctors examining him. The private hospital needs his business so the ward matrom forces Dr Lepton the consultant to dress as a female nurse to examine him. Another quality Tranisa production filmed in two sets with multiple cameras.Staring Jessica Pressley, Paige Turnah, Lara Latex, Tiff, T & Frank. English language
Karina Curry is the cruel feminisation doctor
ready to transform and feminize you.
The pretty nurses have got to grips with the
feminisation of their junior doctor.

Both of the above films are available to watch here:

Transgender FREE Hypnosis

Remember I also now have three FREE transgender self hypnosis / lucid dreaming videos available on the Transgender Self Help You Tube Channel.  Turning Into A Woman, Transgender Lucid Dreams and Bed Time Story Self Hypnosis. Enjoy.......

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Wednesday, 28 December 2016

Transgender Sleep Hypnosis For Fantasy MTF Dreams

Transgender Meditation for fantasy MTF experience

Here we have another self hypnosis file I have created. It is available FREE ON YOU TUBE HERE.

Wednesday, 21 December 2016

Transgender Sleep Hypnosis Story Meditation

Transgender Sleep Hypnosis

A sleep hypnosis story for transgender male to female transformation. This free hypnosis can be found HERE is a Transgender site where such gender transformation can be discussed. A unique meditation delivering a very personal story and experience.

The sleep story is of male to female transformation as is based upon my own experiences of taking female hormones and the feelings and situations I found myself in. So many elements are in fact true. I hope I convey my own experiences using this media, as such an experience is rather surreal. 

Enjoy your own personal male to female transgender transformation using hypnosis and binaural theta beats.

i would appreciate any feed back good or bad as I would like to make some others as a regular series and want to get it right. This recording perhaps has a slight menace to the story but I feel it is important to err on the side of caution.

i do hope you enjoy, and find it a useful sleep aid.

Sunday, 11 December 2016

Lucid Dreaming Hypnosis For Transgender Male to Female Transformation

Lucid Dreaming Induction for Male to Female

Have you ever wanted to explore the world of lucid dreaming? Have you also ever wanted to live out your dreams of becoming female? popular request I have created my first, hopefully of many,  FREE hypnosis video. This is freely available on YouTube Here. It has a running time of 36 minutes and is designed to be used at bed time to assist you in sleeping. The best time to use the video in the later part of your sleep cycle as explained below.

Please feel free to share the YouTube link or embed the file via YouTube where ever you like.

The purpose of this recording is to enable you to experience your inner woman through lucid dreaming. It does not matter if you have never been able to physically express your inner woman in real life. It does not matter if you have never cross dressed. If you have a desire to express a feminine side of your nature this recording is how.

A true lucid dream is very much like entering an alternate reality. The experience is not like a normal dream, it feels totally real in every respect. You have full control over this reality of your own creation. When you first experience such a dream the high obtained is so intense that the excitement can wake you up. With the correct training and experience you can maintain your excitement and prolong the lucid dream for as long as you desire.

Lucid dreaming is a skill that is not easily learnt however this hypnosis tool is designed to accelerate the learning process. I recommend that you keep a dream diary and record all your dreams. You may find initially when you do this that you can only recall a couple of sentences about what you dreamt. As you write down more of your dreams in your diary you’ll soon notice that your writing down complete paragraphs and in time a page full of information. It is essential that you do this to improve your on dream recall. As you do this you’ll soon start to notice common themes within your dreams which are called dream signs.

You can you dream signs to turn a normal dream into a lucid dream by realising you are dreaming. We also recommend that you practice reality checks throughout the day so as you may start to question if you are dreaming within your normal dreams.

Many lucid dreams are experienced after 5 to six hours of normal sleep, and it is suggested that you listen to this recording during the later part of your sleep cycle. There are also food supplements that can assist in making dreams more vivid but we suggest you perform your own research and find what suits you best.

I do hope you enjoy listening to this video and I welcome your comments and suggestions as I would like to do more.

Monday, 28 November 2016

Transsexual Shock Cinema. Using Transgender Characters to Shock the Audience

Using Transsexual Characters in Film for Shock Value

transsexuals in prison

I have often written about the poor use of transgender characters in film to either provoke or shock the audience. Here are two examples. Sleepaway Camp from 1983, when the mainstream media  didn't know any better and also more recently with the 2012 transsexuals in prison film K11.

Sleepaway Camp (aka Nightmare Vacation)

This review does contain spoilers, but you can still enjoy the movie (if you like such movies) whilst still knowing the twist. The clip here shows 'Angela' with her doctor mother whilst still a boy, informing young Peter of his new future as a feminized male who will be called Angela. We presume as she is a doctor the mother will be supplying hormones etc, although this is not part of the plot. We then see the unhappy boy now 'Angela' with her brother and mother before going off to summer camp. The clip also shows some bullying from one of her room mates about the use of the shower.

sleep away camp posterThe film was successful enough to  spawn three sequels. After the first film Angela has her sexchange operation and is now even more psychotic than before. The suggestion that Angela is now more unstable is in poor taste but remember the media didn't know better at the time. Technically speaking this film is not about a transsexual but about an ordinary boy forced to live as a female to satisfy his mothers' desire for a daughter. So perhaps we should not get too critical of the theme. The recent ReAssignment movie is similar as it's just using the idea and methods of transsexuality and not a real based character. Is a person who becomes transsexual not subject to the same rights and respect as someone who is born transsexual?

The original poster shown on the left shows a large knife penetrating through a pair of shorts. I wonder if this is some castration complex being illustrated here?

sleeaway 2 poster
Notice how the poster for Sleepaway Camp II shows a rather androgynous Angela, who is now post op, and presumed more dangerous than before. Her title has been upgraded to "The Angel of Death".

All of the Sleepaway Camp films are freely available to purchase from Amazon here and are also available on many streaming services.

The basic synopsis from the Amazon site is
After a terrible boating accident killed her family, shy Angela Baker (Felissa Rose, Return To Sleepaway Camp) went to live with her eccentric Aunt Martha and her cousin Ricky. This summer, Martha decides to send them both to Camp Arawak, a place to enjoy the great outdoors. Shortly after their arrival, a series of bizarre and violent accidents begin to claim the lives of various campers. Has a dark secret returned from the camp’s past…or will an unspeakable horror end the Summer season for all? 

transsexual exposed
"Oh God..Angela....She's a boy!!!"

K11 'Transsexuals Bare Behind Bars' (well almost!)

transsexual in prison

K11 was made in 2012 by Jules Mann-Stewart. The tag line for the movie reads, "There is a unit in the Los Angeles jail system that separates gay and transgender inmates from the general population. It's called K11." It's in this unit that many new rookies do at least four weeks duty, apparently most of them survive.

There are a number of trans characters featured in the story and we are told by one of the prison guards, "Don't get distracted by the females in here. There aren't any females in here". These trans ladies are hard, very hard, no one messes around with them. The transgender diva of the inmates actually calls herself The Queen / Mousey and enjoys establishing her position to any new inmate. She is played by Kate del Castillo, who in real life looks nothing like her frightening character Mousey.

Sadly the film only uses CIS actors to play the transgender inmates. I don't know why this was as in todays world there are plenty of very talented trans actors. However I wonder how many would be willing to appear in such a film. The film was not well received by critics and was awarded an 8% 'cotton' rating from Rotton Tomatoes.

Kate del Castillo looks nothing
like her Mousey character.

Despite the trailer promising a very nasty rough ride, I enjoyed this film and actually warmed to the Mousey character. She didn't seem that bad after all.

This film didn't seem to cause offence within the trans community despite the very negative image of trans people.  Still it did show then as very tough and not to be messed with. I am comparing the recent 'Reassignment' controversy to this film, which as far as I know missed the trans activist radar.

From Amazon the synopsis reads:
Record producer Raymond Saxx, Jr. (Goran Visnjic), has never seen anything like this before. After a weekend of binge drinking and drug use, he wakes in a jail cell completely oblivious of what happened and how he got there; Ray is abruptly hauled off into a completely new brand of Hell Los Angeles County s controversial K-11 unit. Like Alice in a brutally violent Wonderland, Ray must learn to navigate the politics of vicious transvestites and drug-addicted criminals if he wants to see his perfect life again. 

Complicating matters is a troubled young transgender named Butterfly (Portia Doubleday), a predatory child molester (Tommy Tiny Lister) and K-11 s drug-dealing gang headed by Mousey (Kate Del Castillo, Under the Same Moon, La Reina del Sur) and Ben (Jason Mewes). Even the so-called authority, Sheriff s Deputy Lt. Johnson (D.B. Sweeney), can t be trusted.

You can stream the film on Netflix or Amazon and the DVD can be purchased here