I Want What I Want - Transgender Movie Finally on DVD

Transgender Sexchange Film

Here is a very rare film. I only remember it being shown once on television here in the UK. I was about 10 years at the time and it was on very late at night so I missed out.  33 years later the film has finally made its appearance on DVD for us to enjoy.

From IMDB:

"This is the story of a young man's slow transition into the woman he always knew he was meant to be. Roy/Wendy played by Anne Heywood takes the plunge, leaving her abusive father's house and starting life anew as a woman. Through trial and error she learns the skills and consequences of being a woman as well as the terrible problems involved in not being considered fully female.

The look of the film is total 70's complete with bellbottoms and sappy soundtrack. The story is also somewhat unrealistic. For example, Wendy is able to become fully passable with only a short time of practicing in private. The film goes on to explore many interesting consequences of a life "under cover" when all she wants is a simple life as a normal woman. With all it's obvious faults, "I Want What I Want" contains some surprisingly touching and sensitive moments. And although it appears to have been a very cheap production, the filmmakers manage to do quite a lot with their limited resources. For example, background sounds of cars and dogs during some of Wendy's terrifying moments in public give an eerily realistic feel.

I always find it disappointing when a woman is cast for the part of a man pretending to be a woman. "Victor Victoria" is a fine film using the same gimmick but I find it very difficult to see Julie Andrews as a man even though she gives about the best performance she was capable of. The same goes for this film. Contrast that with "The Crying Game" where the illusion is perfect due to exceptional casting.

Probably controversial in it's time, "I Want What I Want" is a clearly a small film but one worth watching by anyone interested transgender issues."


The DVD is not available in the UK you have to import it from the States. Amazon has it in stock as a Region 1 disk, however I think the back of the box reports it as a Region 0 DVD.

Problems With The Inner Woman?

From IMDB
"John Skillpa, a quiet bank clerk living in tiny Peacock, Nebraska, prefers to live an invisible life. This might have to do with John's secret: he has another personality no one knows about, a woman who each morning does his chores and cooks him breakfast before he starts his day. Then, in a moment, everything changes..."

Great performance by Cillian Murphy crossdressed for the second time (the first was Breakfast on Pluto) playing a quite bank clerk with a hidden alter ego. Not a transgender film but a very convincing male to female transformation tale.

Transvestite Nurse???

Just a quick one. I've added three new films to Tranisa. Tranny Bordello, NURSE!! and Lingerie Shop. Here is a trailer of NURSE!!!

Gender Transformation Top List

I've set up a new Gender Transformations top list which I hope will be of interest to anyone who has a related site and wants to have some easy free traffic. I've only switched it on yesterday and am looking to get it populated. If you have a Transvestite, Shemale or Gender Transformation related site please feel free to be umongst the first to join up. It's free and easy to do. All you have to do is fill out your details and supply your banner to get yourself listed. Your position on the list is determined by linking back to the site from your own site with the supplied banner. I've always received good traffic myself from such top lists so I thought it would be fun to have my own. Its a fair and easy way to trade traffic. Don't worry I'm not using any devious code which runs nasty pop-ups or anything like that, it's a clean genuine traffic driving system. Anyway here is the Gender Transformations Top 100 list:

 

Crossdream Life

Great to see that there are new people joining CrossDreamLife, I notice that there are some very frank and honest posts up there already. I'm hoping to publish a detailed bio of myself up there soon. The bios posted there by the new members are most interesting, and it's good to know I share many character traits with others out there. I wish the site every success.

NEW TRANSGENDER DISCUSSION FORUM: CROSSDREAM LIFE

Here is a press release from the team at Crossdreamlife.com for their new forum:

An online forum for crossdreamers

A group of trangender people have established a new online forum for what they call crossdreamers, men and women who dream about having the body of the opposite sex.

The founder, organizer and administrator of the site, Jason Ikeda, says that there is no lack of transgender discussion forums out there, being that for crossdressers, transsexual men and women and various gender variant people:

"We have to face that discussing transgender sexual fantasies remain difficult in many of these forums, though, partly because there are a lot of transgender people who do not have such dreams and partly because sexuality remains a taboo in many circles."

Autogynephilia and autoandrophilia

Jack Molay, the man behind the blog Crossdreamers, adds that some of the scientific discussions on this topic have led to further stigmatization:

"The scientific terms that are used are 'autogynephilia' - the love of one self as a woman -- and 'autoandrophilia' -- the love of oneself as a man. The scientists behind these terms have made crossdreamers visible -- which is helpful. Unfortunately, they try as hard as they can to include these terms in the American  Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, labeling all crossdreamers as perverts. This  makes it hard for crossdreamers to get a voice, even in transgender circles."

Sharing life stories

The idea behind the new forum, which is called Crossdream Life, is therefore to provide transgender crossdreamers with a place where they can discuss their lives, share coping strategies, inform each others about on- and offline resources, make friends and vent their sorrows and frustrations. 

There is also a chat function, which makes it possible for members to continue their discussions in private.

"We do not expect the participants to agree on one explanation for what crossdreaming is, what it should be or what causes it," Jason says.  "One objective of the forum is to provide an open-minded and tolerant place for exploring what crossdreaming is about. But we do expect everyone to treat each other with respect and empathy."

A little known transgender group

No one knows how many crossdreamers there are in the world.

""There are no world wide mappings of crossdreamers as such," Jack Molay says. "There are some guesstimates for the number of transsexuals, but not all transwomen or transmen have been crossdreamers, and only a minority of crossdreamers transition. Still, I believe there are far more of them that most of us realize.  I have seen some site statistics for some transgender fiction sites that leads me to believe there are many millions in the English speaking world alone."

Lately several new blogs devoted to crossdreaming and related transgender themes have appeared online, which indicates that this group is finding its voice.

Does Jason expect millions of participants over at Crossdream Life?

"No," he says. "But I do hope we can reach the kind of critical mass that leads to interesting, useful and liberating discussions."

The forum can be found over at http://www.crossdreamlife.com

The Schzoid Man an Alternative to the Autogynephilic Pervert



 A little while ago I received some abuse on a forum where I posted some opinions regarding the support of autogynephilia. Or at least I thought it was abuse at the time. It was the old tired argument where a career minded transsexual activist was shouting that autogynephila does not exisit, despite a number of people on the thread admitting the symptoms of AGP. The TS did not suffer from any of the AGP traits found them disgusting and so was of the opinion that AGP did not exisit and that people championing autogynephilia where men with a basic fetish, no different to a man liking stockings and suspenders on a naked woman. On trying to convince the TS that it was more than just a simple fetish as AGP contained gender dysphoric problems, she back fired and stated that the condition was in fact Schziod Personality Disorder, nothing to do with any transgender issues. Here is a bit I copied from Wiki on the subject.

Schziod Personality Disorder carries the following 3 groups of characteristics:


1. unsociability, quietness, reservedness, seriousness, and eccentricity
2. timidity, shyness with feelings, sensitivity, nervousness, excitability, and fondness of nature and books
3. pliability, kindliness, honesty, indifference, silence, and cold emotional attitudes.


People with SPD are sometimes sexually apathetic, though they do not normally suffer from anorgasmia. Many schizoids have a normal sex drive but some prefer to masturbate rather than deal with the social aspects of finding a sexual partner. Therefore, their need for sex may appear to be less than those who do not have SPD, as individuals with SPD prefer to remain alone and detached. When having sex, individuals with SPD often feel that their personal space is being violated, and they commonly feel that masturbation or sexual abstinence is preferable to the emotional closeness they must tolerate when having sex.


I personally don't agree with the TS who felt satisfed that she had diagnosed the AGP condition.  SPD traits can be applied to most people at any given time.


I sometimes wonder if the gender condition is tied in with my inner shyness with women and relationships, to the point where I have created a woman out of myself and have created a gender dysphoric condition myself????


Here is a sip from a very interesting page Jack Molay pointed me to via Twitter:

"I did not display stereotypically female characteristics as a child. Nor, I should say, did I display the usual male ones either. I was painfully shy, and prone for a long time to ineffectual frustration rages. I spent most of my time reading and watching TV. But my primary, and most effective sexual fantasies during my teen and adult years would be immediately recognizable to anyone who has read anything in the genre of “tranny fiction”. Feminization, either forced, or otherwise not by my own responsibility, was what did it for me. And to this day, despite being almost eight years post-op, those continue to be the most potent sexual fantasies I have."


Evidence that AGP continues past SRS!!!!!!!!



Anyone Enjoy Ballet?

Here is a trailer for a recent Tranisa film I did for those with a ballet fetish. Now that is a serious fetish LOL. Enjoy!!!